Thursday, February 19, 2009

Cant help...

i cant help but let the things you said get to me...


i geuss i still belive in you like a good friend should...



well i geuss im letting everyhting you said get to me cuase it hits me hard, just hearing fmor you that everyhtng in fact is myfault, i feel really guily, and theres so much more you said that i cant even begin to get into

im breaking down soo bad, and i just wish i could tlak to someone, and just know everything is going to be ok...

but ive got no1 to even talk to or anyhitng right now, so i geuss im flying solo, i dont have much of anyhitng to grasp onto in this current situation i feel soo helpless like the onlyhting i can do that feels right it so cry, something comforting would be nice...


but i geuss i shouldnt let what other people say get me down... well im already down as far as i can go the only way left to go is up... problem is getting up for me, i dont know how anyone would even move with so much guil on their shoulders let alone other things, she hit the heart...

and plus no1 like somone who is negative and down right...


i just wish i could tlak to her or somebody... i feel soo helpless just breakingdown

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

You've Got Me

By the Heart...

By the neck...



where it all hurts the most....



all i ask... for someone anyone to just hear mean dammit



belive in me


havent been this hurt or cried this hard before...


yeah.. im weak... im insecure...



im broken...



i just wish i could atleast have someone listen to me... atleast listen to the song...........


never felt so guilt, never felt like such a failure...


you've got me...

Monday, February 16, 2009

Garbage

i dont know why but for some odd reason i just feel like another piece of garbage







but theres one thing that comes to mind









i just want to understand you is all...

Sunday, February 15, 2009

All Ive Got

In these past months ive come to realize all ive got... ive learned alot as always, but these indeed are darker times than i have experienced in my past.

ive learned contetment and have become a simple man...

theres not too much to me.

how are these dark time you say?

our econemy is going down hill, my parents are slowly going into debt, and all that ive come to gain is slowly dripping and peeling away till its bases exposed.

the raw, bear essencials.

i useto have have many friends, many of witch i could count to, and turn to in these times in need.

i dont really have someone or anyone such so to turn to in times of need.

theres only a few people in my life so far who really matter and are trustalbe that i can count on.

thou sometimes i feel like ive got no one to talk to... and that ive got nowhere to turn when something is wrong...

ive realized this last time i was breaking down... twas but a few days ago. . .

so ive come to realize all ive got.


and all ive got, i cant say much more then i love them all

one more so in particualar, she holds me together most of the time, dont know what i would do without her or them, theyve become my foundation, if anyhting were to happen to any of them broken i shall be.

i lean on her espiaclly at times, as time goes by i hope i dont become a burdden, and that we grow even closer...

all ive got, isnt much, but i dont ask for more, i just hold them closer, for they have become what i love, and espicially love.

i miss and kinda need someone to talk to when somethings up and going down, i just have to keep it together, and be strong for them and myself, thou sometimes its hard to keep your feet on the ground, for we all need help from time to time...

ive gotta keep it together, after all, nobody likes a down, unplesent, unhopefull person...

another matter at hand i worrie for her, its hard to tell if shes ok i geuss, saying she says she is when she isnt, the kinda person who hides their feelings, thats why i worrie, what if somethings wrong and im compleatly oblivious, i just care is all , want to help... i cant help by want to help and worrie for i love her...


all this jazz has got me kinda blue, id be nice to get away and chill with my 2 friends, or just hold her right now,

that would be perfect


much more perfect than this tear i just shed.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Anthem Of Our Dying Day

...

Idk... what do you think... theres somehting up... i can feel it...





her:um... back?

him:hi

her:I was wondering if you and Emily would notice I was back, oh well

him:i had my thing minimized, and i waas watching a video
sorrys

Her:eh whatever

Him:so whats up?

Her:nothing really
just got out of the shower
and Emily who yelled at me last week for signing off without saying by signed off without saying by

oh well

Him:maybe it was because you were away when she got off

her:um no I got back and then she logged off
but hey whatever
not like I'm gonna die if she doesn't talk to me
it's not I don't see her every fricken day

Him:heh yeah
did you see the crappy photos bre edited?

her:yeah, ages ago

Him:ohh okies lol
so watcha up to?

Her:just sittin trying to think of something to do
I kinda had a song idea going earlier
that I was messing with in my head
but I lost it

Him:its ok it happens, i do the same i have like something i want to play, and can hear it in my head, and see what notes and strings to hit, it dosent sound like what i like or i just fail and foreget

Her:doesn't matter it wasn't that good of a song
I vaguely remember the first line
it was something like
I spill my guts onto him cause omg he's so great and amazing blah blah blah
it was something like that
basically the song was like dissing those sickening couples but I can't remember the rest

Him:ohh i see intresting lol

Her:um not really

Him:ohh okie

ohh fuck getting sick ill ttyl bye bye